im gonna find another you by John Mayer

"I'm Gonna Find Another You"

It's really over, you made your stand
You got me crying, as was your plan
But when my loneliness is through, I'm gonna find another you

You take your sweaters
You take your time
You might have your reasons but you will never have my rhymes
I'm gonna sing my way away from blue
I'm gonna find another you

When I was your lover
No one else would do
If I'm forced to find another, I hope he looks like you
Yeah and he's nicer too

So go on baby
Make your little get away
My pride will keep me company
And you just gave yours all away
Now I'm gonna dress myself for two
Once for me and once for someone new
I'm gonna do somethings you wouldn't let me do
Oh I'm gonna find another you

quote of the moment

just like broken arms and legs,
time will also heal my broken heart =)

holiday wishes I

holiday simple wishes!
1. lulus probation.
2. ke Bandung w/ authority
3. ke Bandung w/ demas & friends haha
4. jackd!
5. lomo lomo lomo
6. canon eos 450D
7. tugas selesai semua
8. bisa ga pulang sampe siang haha
9. thr numpuk pas lebaran
10. maxxx happiness

(to be continue...)

ho li day

yes yes yes hoooooooooliday!
meskipun banyak tugas yg shit abis, but its okay yg penting udah libur.
trus lebaran, abis lebaran jackd! akhirnyaaaaaaaa haha lega banget deh pasti kalo udah selesai lebaran hahaha. cant waittt!
tinggal seminggu lagi nih lebaran, dapet thr trus duitnya dipake buat hura-hura haha.
eh iya raport midtest gw lumayan looh hasilnya. meskipun byk pas2an, tp ygterpenting di bawah kkm cuma 2. itu juga history sama german.
history cuma minus one point! shit abis kan si sabil? zzzzz
german gara2 gw ga masuk pas presentation -________-
mau gimana lagi.. yg penting masi lolos lah haha

19 Sept 2008

thanks God, semakin hari semakin membaik :)
dan gw yakin (kita yakin), pasti bentar lg bisa bareng kaya dulu lagi..
amin amin amin
semoga aja ga ada yg aneh2 lagi. amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin

ini wall dari gw ke demas di facebook (15/09/08)

Nadya Dafina wrote at 12:02am

sayang, kamu tau ga. pas buka facebook aku lgsg inget kamu gitu.
trus kan aku lagi mau upload foto2 deviantart pas kulkul di pim, aku jadi inget gitu aku pake kaos yg biasanya. tp sekarang................ aku udah ga bisa make itu lagi. aku udah ga pantes makenya lagi :'(
yangg, sampe kapan pun separah apa pun aku bakalan terus sayang kamu. terus terus terus sampe nanti kita bisa bener2 married trus ga ada lagi deh yg bisa misahin kita. aku pengen bisa percaya sama kamu.. aku tau kamu emang bener2 bisa dipercaya. aku yakin kamu ga akan ngelakuin hal2 bego kaya yg udah aku lakuin twice ke kamu. maafin aku ya. maaf banget aku sebego itu. sebodoh itu sampe ga sadar aku punya sesuatu yg bener2 the most precious in my life, which is you my Nara. the most precious. sekarang aku baru sadar itu semua pas aku itu udah diambil dari aku. aku udah ga punya sesuatu yg berharga itu. dia pergi dari aku. dia benci aku. dan aku ga bisa ngambil dia lagi. (to be continue....)

Nadya Dafina wrote at 12:07am

tapi aku janji. aku akan berusaha supaya dia bisa balik lagi ke aku. sayang lagi sama aku. bisa peluk aku, cium aku, ada pas aku nangis dan bener2 care sama aku setiap saat kaya dulu lagi. dan aku ga akan egois lagi. aku akan bikin dia seneng sama kaya yg dia lakuin tiap hari. dia mau lakuin apa aja supaya aku seneng. supaya aku bisa bahagia di deket dia. aku juga mau lakuin itu ke kamu. bikin kamu bahagia deket aku. bikin kamu sayang terus sama aku. bikin semua yg kita pengenin bisa kewujud. sampe suatu hari nanti, kita bisa senyum dan inget kalo kita pernah bener2 berjuang sampe kita dapetin itu. aku cinta banget yangg sama kamu. selamanya. sampe kapan pun. dan jujur, aku ga mau nunggu sampe December dateng lagi. aku ga mau. aku mau secepatnya kita bisa balik lagi kaya dulu. seneng2 bareng, ketawa bareng2.. sama kamu. pacarku. sebagai pacar. bukan temen atau apa pun. i love you Nara. selamanya. (to be continue again.... zzzzzzz)

Nadya Dafina wrote at 12:10am

aku pengen peluk kamu eraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat banget trus aku nangis di kamu sampe baju kamu basah kaya biasanya trus kamu cium aku kaya biasanya sampe akhirnya aku diem lagi trus ngeliat kamu trus peluk lagi sampe akhirnya kita bisa seneng2 lagi. pengen peluk kamu yangg. harus peluk kamu! :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(:'( :'(:'( :'( :'(


(hari ini, 15 September. harusnya kita 21 bulan, tp karena kebodohan aku. kita ga bisa 21 bulanan deh. maaf yaa. udah bikin kamu sakit terus. i'll always love you Nara. forever)

its really over

eh iya, sejak tgl 31 waktu itu gw blom blg kan kalo gw udh balikan? hahah itu putusnya bentar banget. main2 doang. Alhamdulillah banget deh :)

tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
sekarang ada yg lebih parah. kali ini gw putus beneran dan dia bener2 ga mau ada hubungan apa2 lagi sama gw. mungkin emang ini yg terbaik buat kita. secara gw jahat banget gitu sama dia..
okay gw tau gw selalu over jealous. tp sebenernya gw bener2 takut banget keilangan demas :(
tapi ya udah lah, sekarang semuanya juga udah selesai. dia udah ga mau lagi sama gw dan gw bisa apa?
gw ga bisa apa2. gw ga bisa balikin waktu and the worst, gw ga bisa berubah. ini parah banget. gw pengen banget brubah dan bikin dia seneng. tapi sayangnya gw terlalu bego dan ga bisa berubah. padahal gw mau banget. mau banget.

sampe sekarang yg gw pikirin cuma, who's the next? siapa selanjutnya yg bakalan jadi pacar demas? siapa?
mungkin ga ya kalo gw lagi? kayanya sih ga mungkin banget. secara dia benci banget gitu sama gw.
daaaaaaaaaaaaaaan semuanya yg udah kita lewatin bareng mau dikemanain?
seneng2nya.. sedihnya.. usaha bareng.. capek2 bareng.. sampe yg begadangan sampe hampir subuh panas2an di tennis indoor buat check sound.. semuanya mau dikemain?? gw terlalu banyak ngelewatin waktu2 seneng susah sedih bareng sama dia. dia manggung, latian, rekaman, check sound, semua gw temenin. semua bareng. kemana2 bareng. setiap weekend bareng. dari yg mabok bareng, belanja, tahun baru, nyari costume manggung, kebut2an, sampe nyoba2 pengen nyari setan aja bareng. dan gw bener2 ga bisa lupain semuanya. terlalu indah buat gw :'(

anyway, besok 15 September loh. harusnya kita 21 months tp malah putus hahahaha emang gw bego banget :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

fyi: kali ini putusnya bener2 serius, dia serius ninggalin gw dan ga mau berhubungan sama sekali sama gw. ya Allah semoga aja gw bisa balikan lagi amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin

eh iya lagu "its not over - secondhand serenade" yg gw post sebelum ini pas banget loh buat gw sama demas :'(

secondhand serenade - its not over

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

w/ demas

silly demas narawangsa :p

water bom

water bom pantai indah kapuk!
aku kan ga akan lupa hari ini, such a great moment we got there

done

thursday, July 31, 2008.
ive decided to leave him, and fly away from his life. i know its hard for us and im in pain.
but i know, its all we have to do, itu yg terbaik buat kita.
ga nyangka banget deh gw, ternyata semuanya pas banget sama lagunya mika zzzzzz
bukannya norak sok2 nyamain gitu, tp bener deh. itu tuh kaya pas gitu ga tau kenapa.

huh, im gonna miss him so bad..
aku tau, dia emg yg terbaik dan gw emg ga bisa & ga boleh ninggalin dia gitu aja dan nyelesain semuanya kaya gini. emgnya 'mimpi' gw sama dia mau dikemanain??
janji2 kita gimana? dilupain gitu aja??
semua yg udh kita lakuin bareng mau dilupain gitu aja?
gw tau, gw ga bisa ngelupain dia gitu aja dan langsung move on.
gw ga bisa, ga akan pernah bisa dan gw ga mau!

gw masih yakin banget, sampe detik ini kalo kita pasti bakal bareng lagi. lagian kan kita pacaran udh bukan kaya anak2 sma yg cuma iseng2 aja dan pasti bakal putus!
kita pacaran serius dan emg niatnya buat selamanya.
gw tau ini kecepetan banget buat anak seumuran kita. tapi ini semua serius and we really love each other meskipun ending-nya kaya gini.
tapi aku bener2 yakin, suatu hari kita bisa bareng lagi :)

dear my nara, im so sorry for all ive done, but also thanks for love cares & everything.
about the ending....
i know its hard to believe but its the best way for us.
love you so much nara, forever <33
-nadya

happy ending - mika

gila ya menurut gw ini lagu enak banget haha.
dan alhamdulillah lyric-nya ga pas sama gw & demas.
haha semoga aja ga akan pas. amin :)

Happy Ending - Mika

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love[repeat]

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I waste everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

fucking infotainment

today i just too bored to stay at home but im also tooooo tired to go out. and thanks god hari ini demas ke sini, dia masih mau dengan baiknya nyempet2in kesini (although just for 2 hours) sebelum dia latian di darmawangsa. thats why i really love him, dia mau2nya nyempet2in setiap hari ke rumah gw meskipun sesibuk apa pun atau secapek apa pun dia. kasian juga ya :(

eh iya, i just watched some infotainment and rese bgt tuh acara!
gila di males banget kali ya jadi selebritis di indo, ada apaan dikit aja langsung heboh. foto pake bikini aja langsung di bilang foto syuur ga jelas -____-
males banget deh ih. trus kalo orang putus ada lagi deket sama siapa gitu langsung heboh. ga mining abis! males banget sih tuh. hahahaha jadi sewot gini gw.

spice girls - mama

Spice Girls - Mama

(i copied this lyrics just for dedicated to my Mama, i love her so much)

She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free
Catching me in places that I knew I should'nt be
Every other day I crossed the line I didn't mean to be so bad
I never thought you would become the friend I never had
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All that you did was love
Mama I love you.Mama I care
Mama I love you . Mama my friend. You're my friend
I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now
Every little thing you said and did was right for me
I had a lot of to think about,about the way I usedto be
Never had a sense of my responsibility
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love
Mama, I love you. Mama, I care
Mama, I love you. Mama ,my friend. You're my friend
But now I'm sure I know why,
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All I can give you is love is love
Mama I love you. Mama, I care
Mama, I love you. Mama, my friend,You're my friend
Mama, I love you, Mama ,I care
Mama, I love you, Mama, my friend, You're my friend